I slept in today, and then I found myself getting caught up in the day instead of stopping to find myself in God first.  I ate breakfast, checked facebook, cuddled with Ben and edited my sister’s engagement pics.  Before too long, I noticed that I was feeling out of sorts and getting grouchy with my husband.  Then when I saw the time and remembered everything that is facing me today, I started getting stressed and panicky.  Plus I felt guilty and foolish for putting off my time with God.

I knew I didn’t have time for my study in Corinthians, so I kind of whispered a quick prayer, asking God where I should meditate.  The thought came just as quickly: Psalm 46.  I love Psalm 46, so I wasted no time in getting there and started reading it aloud.  For a second, it almost seemed too familiar and I thought, “I’ve already meditated on this Psalm really recently. Maybe I should pick another one…”  when I came to verse five and I remembered why it was so familiar.

Just a few days ago I wandered off and felt really disconnected from God after a time-wasting spree (mentioned in my “Understanding surrender” post).  After it, I prayed and cried and begged God for forgiveness and for a sense of closeness with Him again.  Then I read through Psalm 46.

I know this verse is speaking about Zion in its original context, but God spoke the words into my heart:

“God is within her, she will not fall:
God will help her at the break of day” 

When I got to that passage today I got goosebumps.  In today’s situation, so much like the last one, where I felt empty and alone, God reminded me that He is with me and that His Spirit is within me. I won’t fall.
The stress and fears of the day just rolled away.  God is with me, He is my strength and my safe place. I am at peace and confident now – IN HIM!