It's been ages since I've posted here. In fact, I thought....maybe I never would again. My life has gone through the greatest upheaval so far in my short 30 years. I've been through a divorce and I had to leave the best job I've ever had. I've lost more friends than I can count and I've felt more broken than I ever thought possible. Worst, I've let God down and wandered miles away from Him, too.
But He is beyond amazing. Maybe that sounds syrupy, but I've been stunned over and over again by just HOW wonderful He is. Through everything, he's loved me and sent me blessings and pieces of joy when I didn't deserve or expect it.
In fact, I don't know if I could feel more grateful or happier than I am now. I now have a truly beautiful husband by my side, friends that I can count on...and I know that I've learned so much and grown so much through everything. A day doesn't go by without my heart feeling full to bursting with gratitude.
But...I didn't feel inspired to come online and post just to summarize my little story. I was surprised by this familiar verse:
"Don't worry. You trust God? well, trust me, too. My Father's house has plenty of room - if that wasn't true, you know I'd tell you! I'm going there now to get ready for you. And if I'm going to get it ready for you, don't you think I'll surely be back to bring you there? Then we'll be together again - forever." John 14:1-3 (my paraphrase)
Here's the picture I got... those men were so used to having
Jesus right there with them – talking to them, laughing with them,
reassuring them, teaching them...that they were heartbroken he was
leaving. And he promised them a reunion and a happily ever after. But
he wasn't just thinking of them. He has been preparing for me.
Have you ever missed someone so badly, the ache was nearly unbearable? Well, here's a thought - Jesus had to
have missed his besties. With such a great capacity for love
and emotion as he has, he has missed them over the years more than I have ever missed anyone - even my baby when he died. But instead of hurrying to take them home,
he's waited for me. Because he really wants me there, too. When he
said, “then we'll be together” he meant me, too.
I never thought about God missing someone before. It's a new and beautiful thought. And it's incredible to think that he'd put up that with, that he has kept on waiting because he couldn't bear not to have me (or you) there with him, too.
What a reunion that's going to be! :-)
